You ever have one of those days...

...where you just wish you could hit the rewind button and make it all over again?

This morning the cats all showed up and I was happy, so I let them all into the house to eat.  The kittens had grown all thin because they hadn't been coming in, since I had Hank inside the house and he's afraid of cats. O_o''  Anyway, I let the cats out one at a time until only Dipstick remained inside...then I carefully scooped her up and put her outside.  Two minutes later a loud commotion breaks out out front. I rush out and find two german sheperds on my front porch after my kitten. I chase them off and Dipstick runs under the house, thinking she's all right, I turn to go find where the dogs took off too (yeah, they're big dogs, but I want to know where they live so I can chew out the owners), but just as I get across the street I hear a pathetic meow and rush back over to my yard.  Black Jack has climbed a tree and is crying pitifully, but there's nothing I can really do for him because he's too high up.  Dipstick, though, is hurt.  Badly as it seems that she can't walk. I move a piece of wood out of the way and grab her up and bring her inside.  She's in a lot of pain and I call my mom and wake my brother so he can go find Elvis and Black Jack.  Mom comes home but by then it's too late and Dipstick dies soon after.

A few hours later, apparently, the dogs came back...we had Elvis inside, but since Black Jack had scrambled out of the tree and hid under the house we figured he was still under there.  However, the dogs got him too and broke his back. I didn't even get a chance to get out there before he was dead.  God! Watching him twitch...

I want to scream at those dogs and strangle them. I want to rip their owners appart for letting there dogs run loose and not even making an attempt to keep them in their yard. I want to cry because there was nothing I could do to help ease my little babies' passing...especially Black Jack's at least I held Dipstick in the end, though I don't know what good it really did.  I feel so sorry for Gee-gee, the momma, she'll be all confused as to what happened to her babies and now Elvis doesn't have any body to play with any more.  I'm feeling so bad because my parents just got home from their vacation and this happens.

I just want to go back to bed and wake up and everything be like it was. I want everything that happened today to just be one fucked up nightmare.

My Prrrrrecioussss--
<center>RIP
Dipstick-July 8th, 2005
Black Jack-July 8th, 2005